Institutionalized

Suicidal Tendencies, Suicidal Tendencies, 1984

Sometimes I try to do things
And it just doesn’t work out the way I want it to.
I get real frustrated, and I try hard to do it, and I take my time,
And it doesn’t work out the way I wanted to.
It’s like, I concentrate real hard, and it doesn’t work out.
Everything I do and everything I try never turns out.
It’s like, I need time to figure these things out
But there’s always someone there going,

“Hey Mike, you know, we’ve been noticing –
“You’ve been having a lot of problems lately.
“You know, maybe you should get away.
“Maybe you should talk about it, maybe you’ll feel a lot better.”

And I go “No it’s okay, you know. I’ll figure it out.
“Just leave me alone; I’ll figure it out.
“You know, I’ll just work it out myself.”
And they go, “Well you know,
“If you want to talk about it, I’ll be here, you know?
“And you’ll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it.
“So why don’t you talk about it?”

And I go, “No I don’t want to.
“I’m okay, I’ll figure it out myself.”

And they just keep bugging me!
And they just keep bugging me!
And it builds up inside and it builds up inside.
So you’re gonna be institutionalized
You’ll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won’t have any say
They’ll brainwash you until you see their way.

I’m not crazy
You’re the one who’s crazy
You’re driving me crazy

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was in my room
And I was just like staring at the wall thinking about everything
But then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in
And I didn’t even know she was there
She called my name and I didn’t hear it
And then she started screaming: MIKE! MIKE!
And I go “What, what’s the matter?”
And she goes “What’s the matter with YOU?”
And I go “There’s nothing wrong mom.”
And she goes “Don’t tell me that, you’re on DRUGS!”
And I go “No mom, I’m not on drugs, I’m okay.
“I was just thinking, you know.
“Why don’t you get me a Pepsi?”

And she goes “NOOOOO! you’re on DRUGS!
I go “Mom I’m okay, I’m just thinking.”
She goes “You’re not thinking, you’re on drugs! Normal people don’t act that way!”
I go “Mom just give me a Pepsi, please? All I want is a Pepsi.”
And SHE WOULDN’T GIVE IT TO ME.
ALL I WANTED WAS A PEPSI.
JUST ONE PEPSI.
AND SHE WOULDN’T GIVE IT TO ME.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around your back, you’re treated like thieves
Drug you up because they’re lazy
It’s too much work to help a crazy

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room
And my mom and my dad came in
And they pulled up a chair and they sat down, they go:
“Mike, we need to talk to you”
And I go, “Okay,. what’s the matter?”
They go, “Me and your mom have been noticing lately
“That you’ve been having a lot of problems.
“And you’ve been going off for no reason.
“We’re afraid you’re gonna hurt somebody.
“We’re afraid you’re gonna hurt yourself.
“So we decided that it would be in your interest
“If we put you somewhere
“Where you could get the help that you need.”

And I go, “Wait –
“What do you mean?
“What are you talking about?
“WE decided!? MY best interest?!
“How can YOU know what MY best interest is?
“How can YOU say what MY best interest is?
“What are you trying to say, I’m crazy?
“When I went to your schools?
“I went to your churches?
“I went to your institutional learning facilities?
“So how can you say I’m crazy?”

They say they’re gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I’ll be dead

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

It doesn’t matter I’ll probably get hit by a car anyway

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